Becoming Enlightened By Rick Dolwig

(An interpretive outline by Rick Dolwig of the Youtube video with Martin Ball and Leo Gura)

Martin Ball has his MA and PhD in religious studies from UCSB and is a Professor of Religious Studies in Oregon.  He has been studying and working with 5 MEO for years assisting many in experiencing the process and has written numerous books on the subject (  Leo Gura may be found at  The words in this outline are their words. What is enlightenment? Actual enlightenment is total freedom from the confines of the ego and the clear experience of the true nature of the self as one with the Divine and all of the Universe How psychedelics work At the basic level, we are all vibratory beings.  These vibrations translate to frequencies and create resonance which are all different forms of ENERGY.  We are energy beings Psychedelics are energens that alter my ability to perceive and experience energy Ultimately they are an amplification and mirroring of the self My psychedelic experience is always a reflection of my inner self What it is that is going on inside of me 5 MEO is a tryptamine which is the basic building block of the neurotransmitter Neurotransmitters activate receptor sites on the brain My nervous and conceptual systems run off of them Most psychedelics activate a broad spectrum of receptor sites in the brain That is why there is such a variety of responses to the substance Again, it is basically reflecting energetically what is going on inside me 5 MEO activates only the receptor sites on the brain that are most closely related to the ego and individuated consciousness –  It overwhelms the ego Because 5 MEO is naturally produced in the brain through the pineal gland and is therefore not a foreign substance, the brain recognizes it and lets it immediately pass the blood-brain barrier The brain says “yes, give me more of that” and it bypasses the security checks Because it so specifically targets the ego, 5 MEO is the most highly suited psychedelic for experiencing non-duality and enlightenment Why do people do psychedelics?

  1. Explorers – they want to experience different things inside and out

Seeking excitement and novelty, they will try anything – climb mountains, jump of bridges, etc.

  1. Fun Seekers – they want to enhance their sensory experience – have a good time
  2. Healing seekers – shamanistic experiences leading to healing or growth of some specific kind
  3. Enlightenment seekers – seek to experience the truth of oneness at the deepest level and be liberated                 from the ego and thereby to achieve enlightenment.  The non-dualists.

The 5 MEO PROCESS It is the strongest of the psychedelics You go from normal perception at “0” to infinity in seconds If you can relax the ego and surrender to the experience (many people cannot do this) You actually “experience” the infinite nature of the self, God, and reality (not just “understand” or “know”, but “experience” it at the deepest levels) Where there is no subject or object – – just the pure nature of being This is an “enlightenment experience” The most common expressions during and right afterwards are: “Oh my God, that was it!!” “Holy shit!”  “Whatever enlightenment is, that was it!”  “Wow!” The self is freed from the prison of the ego You experience extreme degrees of open-mindedness The experience is most commonly described as “ineffable” – incapable of being put into words Because words themselves are limiting and dualistic The experience of being infinite cannot be described because it is so far beyond anything else we have ever experienced (Martins description of his process) – “It melted my whole body, not just mentally, but my heart through my whole body, like a whole body orgasm.” “Do Nothing” – We are dealing with energy, so as you enter the experience know that the ego is a chronic controller and busybody and will try to take over, analyze, and ultimately use fear to keep control Be aware of this as the observer and come back to neutral and rest your body in symmetry Don’t try to figure it out – that’s the ego approach “Do Nothing” The more I relax the ego, the more my body begins to speak on its own terms the more my genuine energy is able to express itself physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally There is nothing to do – JUST BE Ride the wave all the way open and all the way closed Stay relaxed, calm, and present all the way through the process in every moment Then, after a few minutes, you come back and reintegrate to the ego The structures of the ego reform – see below The EGO It is a collection of patterns of energy stored over time in the body, from experiences from the past These energy patterns are released when stimulated or trigger by outside events A dog – when the door knocks he barks – it is a natural energy pattern A person – I edit and censor my own natural energy patterns, thoughts & words I create other energy patterns to get people to like me, to fit in, cultural These energy patterns are not me, and are limited and not infinite So they can be all overwhelmed by the energetic shock therapy of 5 MEO With 5 MEO the ego finally says “I give up!”  The ego can “choose” to surrender and let go No psychedelic can ever violate my free will Because it is just an amplification of my self So I can choose to go all the way – or not I can choose to maintain the existing patterns of energy If I choose “no”, the experience can be momentarily difficult If I choose “yes”,  and surrender and relax, I may experience infinite sources of unconditional love It is like being at the top of the roller coaster I can scream to stop and try to get off, or raise both arms high and go for it THE GOAL is to deconstruct the patterns of the ego that create distortions, stored energy, and fear Since this is usually in the abdomen, it may result in purging through vomit and diarrhea Or may result in loud and boisterous behavior, anger, or acting out Psychedelics help us let go of our shit – They help us to let go of the carefully constructed life, partner, friends, and activities that we created in order to prop up the ego and all of its illusions This self constructed story that fits my beliefs about myself and what I think I deserve and am worthy of It is not who I really am and totally fucks up my life Who I really am is what this is all about I am the Universal Divine Consciousness I can learn to live outside the illusory constructs of the ego patterns I can become the observer of the ego As I rest in symmetry, I see the patterns of the ego come to the surface I can choose to let them go and live in no particular pattern Then, instead of the ego being a prison in which I am trapped It becomes a garment of clothing I can put on or take off at will I learn to simply be true – committed to non-dual truth I don’t commit my mind to things I don’t know for certain are true Which is most things I express myself openly, honestly, and clearly Without editing or censorship I don’t back away from what I truly think or feel No more white lies – telling people what I think they want to hear I cannot THINK my way out of the ego – because, “who is doing the thinking?” – the ego The only way out of the ego is to stop and do nothing Relax in symmetry, and be in the body to be in reality THE 5 MEO EXPERIENCE –  NON-DUALITY – what it is we are seeking – why we do what we do Non-duality at its fullest is the experience that everything is all one thing.  There is no separation as in the duality belief in right-wrong, good-bad, past-future, time-space, god-human, me-you, us-them, this – other.  Not two, only one. There is only one consciousness, only one being – god It is everyone and everything and loves to interact with itself A deep desire to discover absolute truth and to be liberated from the confines of the ego We seek a full non-dual experience  (the following is Martin Balls experience of 5 MEO in his own words) “I encounter the true nature of God as the infinity of all reality at once All of reality is God experiencing himself through billions of people And God is living through me It is not a sense of emptiness or nothingness It is the full infinite complexity of everything eternally and simultaneously and it’s conscious, and aware, and alive A full experience of truth and absolute infinity” What I am after is direct consciousness A direct portal of consciousness opens up I feel and recognize that it is true – I know when I encounter truth, I feel it deeply When I encounter truth, I release and feel the relief move over me and through me I know that there is nothing to be afraid of When I am energetically fully open, I can go into the non-dual experience with my arms wide open I hold my body in perfect bilateral symmetry   INTEGRATING the non-dual experience of 5 MEO into real life The process of non-dual liberation = enlightenment I need to commit myself to becoming aware of the dual and non-dual nature of my self Of the choices I am making Of the vibrational energy I am experiencing Am I being true to myself or compromising and editing myself I need the non-dual experience to raise my awareness of my true self – To see what is actually going on and how duality plays out in my life through the ego The rest of it is fine tuning Becoming more and more aware of the cloak of the ego How I have constructed a character for myself The ego tries to convince me that I am the character I play I am not – I am the Universal Divine Consciousness I rest within the infinite nature of the non-dual nature of self I loosen the grip of the dual nature of my reality It is all about personal development, self-actualization, and letting go of my attachment to the ego I discover and experience my real, authentic self for the first time in my life That self is a universal self that is the same for everyone – we are all one It is not about finding a “calling” or “purpose” – that is the ego talking The only purpose in life is to BE and to enjoy myself                                                 “The Dude Abides” 5 MEO opens me up to the really deep personal development work It pours fuel on the personal development journey and speeds it up Because now I actually have experienced where it is going Not just “understand” or “know” but actually “experienced” My eyes are now opened to the real possibilities. It is like giving birth to myself each time I take it – with the trauma, and intensity And then being born as the Divine Universal being that I have truly always been After cleaning out the nooks and crannies of my belief system                                     The 5 MEO experience is deeper and more effective than any other methodology It is an accelerator – not a short cut I don’t “skip over” anything I still have to go the same distance to get to enlightenment I still go through the same shit – I just do it faster In a way where I am more acutely aware of what is going on It is challenging, and I must be vigilant that my ego doesn’t take me off into la la land and new age bullshit Each time I have an “enlightened experience” of absolute consciousness and true infinity, I realize that there is something more and I realize what that something more really is Then the ego comes back pretty much like before – but I am more aware of it and more open-minded As the observer, I see how it dictates and manipulates my energy and thoughts and beliefs in order to control me and keep me from my real self If I can observe it, I can LET IT COME AND LET IT GO I feel free not to listen to it Finally, over time and with enough “enlightened experiences”, the switch is thrown. The ego cracks and says “it is what it is.” I AM one with the Divine and the Universe. It is as if I am on 5 MEO all the time The ego is off all the time, unless the character is needed for social purposes I will never put myself in the prison of the ego again Just put it on and take it off like a garment of clothing, smoothly, as I choose Then I am Golden – I am finally done (One of the most effective tools I have found for integrating the 5MEO experience into my day to day life is the Law of Attraction as taught by Abraham Hicks in the videos on Youtube.  Just put in “Abraham Hicks” and any subject you choose such as “love” or “money” or “relationships”, and then listen to the 10 -15 minute segment.) Using other psychedelics after using 5 MEO You will have a totally different experience than previously – because your defenses are down Just surrender to it, be vulnerable, open up to it by holding your body in symmetry Let it be a full spectrum experience, across the board – another birthing Mentally, energetically, emotionally, physically, and spiritually Very efficient, just allow it to happen FREEDOM AND TRUE LIBERATION  (the true goal is liberation from one’s own mental prison) I just sit with myself and see what arises and happens I simply flow with it and let it happen – it is a form of “actionless action” I become the vehicle for the expression of that But it is not based upon any intention or desire Throughout the day, the more at peace I am, the more centered, present, and clear I am The sweeter and richer and freer I am It is just that simple, without ever getting in my own way LIFE IS – I AM – WE ARE (It is said that in ordinary life the deadliest disease that has now infected mankind at the deepest level is – distraction.  One is constantly distracting oneself with things, events, plans, goals, expectations, and doing.   One would sit and create an intention and then create a plan to achieve the outcome one decided to achieve, and then go out and try to do it.  This is all the ego at work.  Not the true self at play. As Dr. Phil would say, “How’s that working for you?”) “If the doors of perception are cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, infinite.” William Blake – 1790 In 1953 Aldous Huxley wrote a book titled, “Doors of Perception” – The book is all about his experience of Mescaline, also known as San Pedro and Peyote. Jim Morrison named his musical group after the book We all have the urge to transcend one’s self.

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